Chris Brown is an Idiot!

Ok, this whole CB/Rihanna fiasco. I keep seeing people trying to be politically correct when commenting on it. Celebrities saying that Chris is a young man that made a mistake. WTF? a mistake! I'll say he made a mistake! He's hiding out in Las Vegas 'cuz he knows Jay-Z's gonna curb stomp his ass! I'm sure this isn't the first time he's hit Rihanna either. So that begs the question, what was she still doing with him? I hope to God that she won't go back to him. Everyone knows now that he's an a$$hole and it would just look really stupid for her to go back.

I'm glad to see him losing endorsements and airplay on the radio stations. His career deserves to go in the toilet. But I just can't help not being as mad at him as I should be! It drives me nuts, but he is such a clean-cut looking kid. He seemed really likeable and I'm sorry for whatever it was that turned him into a woman-beater. But seriously, there's no way that people aren't going to side with Rihanna on this. I mean, just look at her! What kind of an moron would hit Rihanna? There are thousands of men who would line up to be with her!

I can't help though but make comparisons to other musicians that have allegedly made 'mistakes'. Mainly R. Kelley and Michael Jackson. Their 'alleged' crimes were different, but for some reason they never really lost their careers over it. R. Kelley still makes music. I'm not sure how well he sells 'cuz iIm not a fan but I know there are people out there that still listen. There are a couple of songs of his that I do like. What does that say about me? What does it say about me that I still dance to Michael's hits from his heyday whenever I hear them? If he were to go out on tour tomorrow there would be throngs of people lined up buying tickets (iIm not one of them). How do we compartmentalize these guys and still like their ART even when we no longer like THEM as human beings?

I Totally Need A LIfe!

So I'm on Facebook looking at the pics of my friends. Some have children, some don't. They are all having a better life than me. They go to parties, they socialize with friends, they have each other over for dinner... What am I doing? I'm looking at pics on facebook. I'm not the best person in the world to get to know. I'm not good at smalltalk and I hate being phony. Maybe that's why I don't have dinner invites. People stopped inviting me to parties. I always had some reason not to go. Kids.

Life is such a big effort for me. I stress over every decision. I forget what I came upstairs for. My kids get on my nerves most of the time. I stopped enjoying sex with my husband. I guess I must be depressed but what else is new? Why am I depressed now? What sparked it? Was it my daughter's current diagnosis with ADHD? Was it the realization that I probably have it too? Was it the thought that everything has to be difficult for me and life just can't be easy for once?

But that statement isn't really accurate. My life can't always be hard. Sure I have 3 kids that are lousy eatters, one has ADHD, the other one probably has it too. My son, the youngest doesn't sleep thru the night at 10 months old and hates eatting anything. My husband refuses to agree with me on anything and loathes consistency of any kind. I stay home stuck in the house with no car trying to come up with ways to pass the time. To say that I'm bored would be an understatement. I'm isolated and feel like I'm going crazy! Could it just be the weather?

But the real question is how do I get out of it? I want to go back to work but there are complications there too. I want to get my youngest daughter into daycare but even if we could afford it the spots are scarce. I'm starting to see a therapist who I hope can help. But I really do need a life.

Obama-Nation!

The whole world is in love with Barack Obama and rightfully so. As a Canadian I'm fully jealous of all of the pomp and circumstance you Yanks pay to your leaders. I couldn't imagine have a ball for Stephen Harper when he was elected, let alone a parade! Celine Dion didn't sing for him. I don't even know if he made a speech afterward. That's the definition of Canadian Apathy isn't it?

I was excited, proud and hopeful yesterday watching the inaugeration. I took pictures of my television set for pete's sake! I'll remember where I was when Obama was sworn in as the 44th president of the United States. But he's not just the American president is he? He's more like the leader of the entire world! It's just such a huge departure from the last administration. Obama has set himself far apart from what America has come to stand for in the past 8 years.

That's what I'm afraid of. I'm afraid Obama has painted himself into a corner that he can't step out of. That all of the high ideals he spoke of are not possible to create anytime soon. That the world is in such a mess, that no one man could possibly do enough in 8 years to make a noticable change. I'm afraid that hope will just turn into hype and not the compromise that will be required to see Obama's vision come to life. I'm afraid that in the end, after all of the rockstar celebrity status, after all of the tears and wreckless optimism; Obama will turn out to be just another politician. Telling the world what it needed to hear in order to gain office. I'm hoping he's not going to let us down.